I Hate This Outfit! 030811

Lucy's Outfit on Fat Tuesday

I dressed her and "made" her wear a New Orleans Vintage Tee.

She hated it. When I picked her up, she stated proudly first thing, "no one dressed for you maddie day". I declared back, "you don't like being like everyone else, so Great". She followed by lead. One win for Mom.

I Really Suck!

This blogging is really hard for me. I struggle to get going in the morning much less report on it but I am tring to be a better human so bear with me please. I have not taken pictures of Lucy much lately. I think that I just want to forget some of her recent esembles. I did record her outfit last friday which was fancy day. She was very proud.

I find that I may not be able to report my weight. I really struggle to be accountable. I weighed 105.6 last time I weighed this weekend which caused me to freakout. I guess I am better off not knowing or am I?

My spirtual journey encouraged me to identify a way to sacriface during lent. I am going to give up chips which means big old chip party today. I really look forward to fighting temptation. I hope that I can continued to read my devotional daily and find inhanced insight (God Willing). I took the kids to mass but did not gain a bit of inlightenment because my youngest and most precious was wondering to neighboring pews and hanging out with random strangers (to her at least). Problem is that I thought is so cute and funny that they should laugh and enjoy her antics. I was advised to maybe use the quiet room! Maybe next Sunday.

Many A Project!

I want to offer several new directions and projects in the blog.

1. My daughter Lucy has started to insist that she pick out all her own outfits. Today she wore a pair of faded black skinny jeans with a black and cream striped tee tucked in. She topped the ensemble off with a cream cardie with pearl buttons and a oversize hair bow off to the side. She then looked at me and stated, "I wish I wore glasses; I need them with is outfit". She then put on some glittery sunglasses and some mauve lip gloss and stated "this will do". Based on this experience, I was advised to document her journey through fashion in pictures as often as I can.
2. I am trying to instill the faith and religion in my children, which is a fairly foreign concept in my life. I am attending Sunday school weekly (which is on Wednesday) and plan to confirm to our church this Easter. I picked up two daily devotionals at class yesterday that assist one in better self exploration through lent. I will document my first experience with daily meditation. YEA!
3. I have an eating disorder and have had one since I was 9 years old. As my oldest and most precious starts to approach that age I want to proactively identify my problem. I have body dysmorphic disorder (really it is crazy) that had lead to both bulimic and anorexic behaviors in my youth along with some aggressive internal self bulling. I often lie about my weight and at times struggle to get dressed or shower due to the fear of facing my body. I am better than I have been in years. But I continue to allow the number on the scale or my percieved number to control my day and my friends and families interaction with me. My view of myself is so loud in my brain that I often can not hear others and/or talk about anything else. That action has got to stop! In order to address this behavior I am going to report my weight (WI- weigh in), my view of my self as a person (PJ- personal journey), and my score in mothering (MT- mother time) at the bottom of most of my post. I engage and encourage feedback related to my post and this battle. Honesty is the best policy and is going to be my first step at inhancing the quality of my own life.

I my hopes these three angles will provide my blog more purpose and truly help me to open up and honor the name by allowing this blog to be a mother's little helper.

WI- 104 (higher than I like/ scrubs as a result)

PJ- 7 (pretty proud of my honesty today but forgot to bring my friend to work)

MT- 9 (I got bows in hair all teeth brushed and everyone got to school on time with no yelling and allowed Lucy to be herself which is not easy for me!)

Naked Baby Jam

Our friend Scott told us to check this out several months ago. Elliott, my almost 2 year old, loved it from the start. Last night Hank took her to watch the laughing baby that is sweeping the web. Elliott was not interested in the baby, and she begged Hank to play this video. I recorded the family's response which is the second and third video. This song makes me happy because my family is home to me. I hope you love the naked baby jam session as much as I did!




HERE ARE THE KIDS ROCKING OUT TO THE ABOVE MENTIONED VIDEO.
WORK IT GIRL; WORK IT! (NOTICE THE BREAK DANCE MOVES AND THE INAPPROPRIATE TOUCHING.... I SEE A ROCK AND ROLL FUTURE)

TEAM CHARLIE ROGAN

Charlie Rogan in the NICU

"OH MY GOSH!", I shouted, "Robert and Stephanie are pregnant; WHAT THE HELL". Robert and Stephanie loved each other and had been married forever, but I was shocked. I think they were shocked as well. But with loads of grace they faced this exciting new adventure together. Throughout the journey, they met stressor after horrible stressor. This couple faced problem after problem but through it all Charlie Rogan never gave up and her parents remained hopeful as well. During this time Hank and I discovered that we were pregnant again. "OH YEA! Our babies will be best friends forever."

Then things kicked into high motion. Stephanie felt as if her water was breaking. OH NO! IT IS WAY TO EARLY! During one hospital mistake and miss hap after another, Stephanie and Robert were off to Jackson to wait in a sterile environment with hopes that Charlie Rogan baking would bake on up for some more weeks. Old C.R. held out long enough for Hank and I to make one visit and then she arrived. Her strong willed self entered this world at only 2 pounds and 9 ounces, but with the help of her family's love and the March of Dimes, Charlie is now 2 years old. She is both my youngest and most precious Elliott's best friend and arch enemy. I love Charlie Rogan as if she is my own and I am thankful for all the services that help her survive and her parents cope.

Charlie Rogan now

To show my love, I am joining the March of Dimes' TEAM CHARLIE ROGAN. The Gillespie family and Charlie are the ambassador family this year and need all the support possible to earn loads of money to help future babies have success stories like Charlie Rogan's. For more information, to join the team, or to donates gobs of cash go to
http://www.marchforbabies.org/personal_page.asp?pp=3096062&ct=4&w=4496529&u=stephaniegillespie

or order a tee shirt

They come in sizes 2T-4T ($12), YXS - Adult XL are $18, and XXL and up are $21 ($10 of which goes to the March of Dimes).

The Gillespie's are trying to reach their goal of $5,000 by May 7. Please help them by donating to their wonderful cause. You can donate by going to the Team Charlie Rogan March of Dimes page. Just click on the link. Any amount of money will help. Don't you worry one bit about how you're going to pay. They accept cash/check, credit or debit card, and paypal. If you can't give monetarily and you live in Greenwood, MS or surrounding areas, get out on May 7 and walk with Team Charlie Rogan.
Now you have no excuses!

Please share this with your friends and family. The more people that are aware of this wonderful organization the better. Premature babies are something that most of us are affected by and we don't realize how much the March of Dimes helps until we've been there.

Parting Gift

I found this CD and to my surprise it still played. WHERE ARE YOU FIONA?
It was fun listening to it on my way to work. I feel empowered and ready to start the day. Susan giving me my first Muncho since high school was another added treat.

Added bonus: I thought that this song was not going to play but it did yea! It is my fave by far!

Maladptive Mondays

I have decided to entitle my Monday blogs as Maladaptive Mondays because I am never ready for them, and I am shock by my lack of preparedness.


This Monday started with a blister on my daughter's arm exploding in my face. Goo dripping off my ear and my middle and most precious screaming at the top of her lungs as if she had just been attacked with gobs human waste.


Well I digress, I survived the pimple juice and the weekend. Hank and I bought him a new ride this weekend. It is exactly what he wanted and the deal was fair while the shopping experience both quirky and fun. We are now the proud owners of a 2006 Nissan Pathfinder that is black with tan interior. I also discovered that I do get hungry if I go too long with out eating (very good to know at thirty).

The highlight of my weekend was Friday night Hank cooked dinner for his mother's birthday and then we went out and had two beers at Crawdads in Merigold while our friend played.

Surprisingly enough, I regretted not wanting to go. The crowd was full of familiar faces that were too long absent from my nights. I enjoyed seeing everyone and proud of our friend Courtney's singing and her courage. Andrea, my BFF, was also kicking killer shoes. Oh what a good time had by all.

For my friend Laura M. at www.lauramerrill@blogspot this one is for you!