Not Much on Posting...



As I have shared openly recently, I struggle to blog in the present. I lack interest in my own voice (and have had a broken computer at work). Anyone who has ever met me knows that I intensely dislike change and change is overwhelming recently. Kids grow up, summer ends, school starts, weight gains, and money wains.
Most devastating, however, is my best friends (sans my spouse) are moving and their lives are dramatically altering. Excited for them, yes I am. But, I am also heart broken and lost in the face of this change.
I noticed myself start to slip into the comfort of books and other distractions of reality.
I want to kiss my kids each day and make my love and time evident. I however often forget to show love to my spouse and children by being emotionally present.
Do y'all feel absent at times?

Have I made you feel miserable yet with my Debbie Downering?

Remember the positive, right! My coworker and office mate Laura Merrill is back.... woo, hoo, hoo!



And this recent video, OK Go is known for creative videos and this is no exception. Live they were not my favorite. It might have been the distraction of The Hubie past out on a beach at 11 am or the hangover I was feeling but needless to say I will not be buying a ticket for them in the future.

They are best on youtube!

Fun huh?

I also heard about this video this morning. I really like LCD Sound system, but more I enjoy when people are smart and cute. This video redo is worth checking out!

Feeling Better already.

Goal:

I plan to write a blog each weekday to also help this feeling. I am comforted by the good

company I share in my blogging slump.

It truly seems that not blogging is the trend the last two weeks.

The sounds of school buses and morning whines fast approach the Pantin house.  Yesterday, I paused to remember the good times by snapping some camera shots of my girls.

Yes, Lucy fashion sence lead to a Barbie cheer costume and Hello Kitty jewelry...God Bless her.

As for clips, last week a posted a Cults song that I love.

This week the band released a video which I find to be very smart.

Hope you enjoy it as I do.

Go Outside, by Cults from Boing Boing on Vimeo.

Bad Mothering at Its Finest!

This weekend I finally caved into severe

peer pressure from an 8 year old

and purchased

Grand Theft Auto.

My child begged for this game for about two years.  I said no and Hank said hell no.  After two years, we, as a unified unit, were tired an

succumbed to the begging and pleading.

I hid in the store as if I was stealing something.  I looked around for cameras, placed in behind my back, and prayed for

guidance.

When I arrived at the counter, the lady asked me if the game was for me or "the child".  Like a deer in headlights, I respond "I am paying for it".....

"that is not what I asked mama"

Oh, Holy Crap she is own to me.. I am going to bad parent jail.

She stated that she had to read a statement

"this game contains violence blah, blah, blah.....

realistic sex scenes"

I shouted "what"... I was now having a full on panic attack!

"I can't do this"... I repeated.

Gram started to repeat "I knew it wasn't going to happen" with his face as if he had his only friend snatched from his life. 

The lady looked at Gram and asked "why do you want this game so badly"

Gram explained that he wanted to walk around, get into cars, and maybe shoot guns.

 

The acne faced clerk assured me that the sex and extreme violence required skill and missions and as long as he stole cars he would be fine

 

I BOUGHT IT!

 

Gram came home and started playing with all the joy imaginable in this child's eyes. 

I was not selling drugs or committing crimes.

In his young mind, he was an ambulance driver, a mac truck cruiser, and the occasional policemen.

He liked to watch television and buy burgers not women.

I thought to myself, "you dumb ass he is just a child and his mind still thinks with the innocents of a child.

 

Then I heard some old man while my so was just trying to purchase a burger in Liberty City say,

 

"I cant get an erection which is crazy 'cause her tits were huge"

 

Quickly,

 "Gram lets play this game on mute!"

 

"OK momma, the people in this town are so mean"

 

Well, just another day in the world of a poor parent!

Clips on Friday!

I know, I know....

I have not blogged in forever.

I am generally lazy and spent

much of my time self reflecting as

of late.

However, I thoughts some clips this

Friday might help me make through the day.

1st

Humor

(warning lots of F-bombs)

(I love the unnecessary use of the F-word!)

2nd

Dance

(I will be dancing with my kids to this song, tonight!)

3rd

Deep Breaths

(This song helps me chill out!)

Sorry for not being the

best blogger these days!

I hope to have to bring to the table

next week.

Good weekend to all and to all a goodnight!



Best Friends and Arch Enemies!

Instead of posting clips this

Friday, I am going to show you

one of things that makes me the happiest.

I finally have a child that has not only

a best friend but one with parents that I love.

Lets AW WWW! at them together

GET! THOSE POPSICLES GIRLS

Charlie, Help with this thing I know that it opens, somehow.

UM MM!

Mom, Stop and let me do it "me self"!

The long walk of life!

I hope they continue to love each other for many years to come.

And, know that they better not get in trouble as teens

because I want pay

to bail them out!

I plan to see my best friend this weekend

and

I hope you get sometime or a chat with yours!

Happy Friday!